The day when someone that I respect the most, give me an appreciation of what I have done. And today the Big Boss just did that.

He asked me to join the meeting – when usually just between the manager and him. And after the meeting was almost over, he asked me about my study and stuff. Then he said something that flattered me the most, “She is a good seed. Let’s keep on maintain her…” to the manager.

I smiled. The biggest smile that day.

rules no #2 Don’t date your male best friends who are working in the same company with you!!!

No, LIKE SERIOUSLY! Don’t!!!

But this is what a job could do, take me away from my own self. From writing, drawing, my German class-plan, literally everything…

I just don’t get it, why does the most of this world population  is so dedicated to their job which has taken them away from everything but their-self – well, unless, they find happiness through their jobs. Not so many people as lucky as that.. Well… at least I am not..

I have been working for a month and I am still sucking my self to the job, hoping that I could finally love the job, the city, the situation, the friends and everything.. Call me a wimp but I never once ready for Jakarta again since Korea and that is suck!!

I miss everything back in Korea. I miss everything in Korea.. And OH!! I miss the subway and the smell of “mugunghwa” in the morning mixed with the sandwich and coffee altogether…

Yes I miss the boys, the club and of course the freedom back in Korea. I could not find any words to describe how I missed it.

I miss me.. actually!

I go for 20/30 and I expect him to go 80/70.

But I need him to make his move first and I don’t think 80/70 is too far.

Yea…

My ego needs to be certain that it is a signal of kissing and actually 80/70 journey will be all worth it.

Please meet me in the half way…

Hahaha

Working is tiring…

On Monday I think of Friday.

In the morning I think of Lunch.

After lunch I think of going back home.

Not so proud of it, especially I have so many things to achieve and suddenly I realized that I already turned 25 this year.

Last year, I moved two times: Daejeon-Seoul-Jakarta. Here in Jakarta, I have to re-start everything again. I have to prove my self-again. The challenge is there and real. I left all my friends back in Korea and I have to deal with so many new things in Jakarta. Sometimes it’s not easy but tell my self to survive, because I have no other way than keep moving forward.

Last year I also have to say goodbye to my jobs: Asia Institute-DHL-Dim Sum Restaurant. Not easy. But again, I have no other choice.

Last year I have to deal that I was still in love with my fling back in 2008. Not easy, especially I did so many stupid rebound relationships just to pull him out of my head. And just many other rebound relationships in the world, it ended.

I need to find my self again…

Please bear this with me.

where the main character is shown to be scared of opening a door
as the music builds we all get scared of what’s behind the closed door
but we should keep in mind that in our case.. Christ is the one opening the door for us
and whatever it is behind that door, we know that it’s all gonna be fine because He’s holding our hands.. we’re never alone

Should I still believe that man and women can really be friends???